A Great Awakening?

I slept well last night. Something clicked inside me as I wrote the Limerence article. Suddenly, I was myself again and suddenly, I realised I do not need to fret about the things that have sidetracked me for the last few weeks. Patterns repeat until you learn the lesson. Hopefully, I now have.

Suddenly, now that I see clearly, I have a deep feeling of sorrow for the lady in question. She is deeply wounded and unable to move forward. She is in a prison of her own making like many of us but her prison is worse that most. She denies herself happiness, destroys it in fact as she doesn’t feel worthy of it. She has a martyr type complex where she sacrifices her happiness in order to pay for some crime she feels she committed not realising that each time she does that, the hole she digs gets deeper.

I tried to tell her yesterday. I tried to explain. She is deaf and blind to it.

Now, I need to break all the bonds that trap me in my own prison and a big one is this need to be with someone. I don’t need anyone. I am just fine on my own. If it sounds like I am trying to convince myself, it is because I am. By saying out loud these things, we take them onboard.

In the next week or so, I am going to pick a super last minute package holiday and go. I will go and chill out in the sunshine by the ocean for a week.

My Garmin watch measures my sleep and stress. For weeks, my stress has been off scale high and my sleep poor. Last night, after my realisation, I had no stress whatsoever and registered my best nights sleep in weeks.

Life is a magical experience of learning lessons. We are stubborn creatures and often life needs to kick us many times before we get a glimmer of what we need to do. Given that, maybe the fact that the world is so upside down and so very weird these days is a sign that many of us are being challenged to recognise that we have chosen our respective prisons. Perhaps it is simply how an awakening occurs? Maybe we should be welcoming the insanity around as as a wake up call for humanity?

Manu of us have been living in a dream - asleep and imprisoned. We all carry baggage and we all conjure our own demise. Perhaps at this moment, many more are being challenged to see that and awaken. Some will and some will not.

The dowsing work has opened my eyes to many things but that there are greater energies at work right now is certainly one learning. I feel as if I am being reborn - becoming a butterfly - through a series of different types of awakening experiences. I feel this was one.

Now the trick is to stay awake and not succumb to sleep again….